My internal suffering has gone too far!
I am my worst enemy and the destruction I bring is beyond your imagination.
Constant clawing and demolishing from the inside out.
How can people go on living... knowing this pain.
Why cant I change! I know my own faults better than anyone but still I'm stuck in this dark circle which is spinning out of control.
I want to get of at the next stop.
I do not know how to get of this merry-go-round which I built myself.
When did I lay the first bricks of my self inflicted doom?
Why haven't you stopped me from building this nightmare around me, about me.
This is the hideous truth which I cant seem to face since I'm still running away.
Tear it down and build me up.
I want a new me!
But reality is harder than you were ever told.
They raise you up so you can fall right down.
They live for it. To see you fall.
Don't let them, gloat as you come tumbling down.
Instead of falling you could always dive, gracefully, and start again.
Build a new you from beginning to end.
Starting now!